Tonight we will be celebrating New Years in the Sussex countryside, where we have been staying with my Dad and cousins for the past few days...
I've written this post twice already but there's just something about the way it comes out that makes me want to delete it.
But as I was sitting here trying to figure out how to carry on and thinking I should probably just not write this post at all, my cousin reminded me of a moment when I was six years old. I was sitting at the kitchen table in Hoolet House in Jersey, where my Dad used to bring my brother and I to spend our summers with our cousins. My aunt made me a hot chocolate using water instead of milk and I hung my head and said "that's the problem with the world these days, no one uses milk to make hot chocolate anymore."
It's been a long time since water instead of milk in my hot chocolate was my biggest problem in all the world, but this year has made me long for those days more than ever.
When I was about fourteen my English teacher had our class memorise passages from The Prophet by Kahlil Gibran. I don't remember much of it but one passage came back to me early in 2013 and has stuck in my mind throughout the year, it's on Joy and Sorrow: "The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain."
I'm not going to make any predictions about next year because if there's anything that 2013 has taught me it's that things will happen as they happen. I have a lot to look forward to in the future, but my only goal for next year is to work hard each day as it comes to make it a good one. To make sure that I am the happiest, healthiest version of myself that I can be.
And to you I want to say thanks for sticking with me this year, through the good times and the bad. I wish you all the happiness in the world for the coming year, all the peace, and all the love you can manage to contain within yourself.
See you in 2014!xx