I had an entirely different post planned for today, but I came across this short film and thought it could not be more appropriate for how I'm feeling these days - and probably appropriate for a lot of other people too who struggle to do something and sometimes feel like quitting.
I feel like I've been in the gap for at least three years, and I have been working so hard to bridge it. And with the publishing of my portfolio I feel like it has finally been bridged.
I'm proud of myself. I'm satisfied with what I produce. I have confidence in my ability and that is something I haven't felt about many things in my life. I look back on my earlier photos, from Kenya and Nicaragua, and I knew they were bad at the time. But I look at what I've produced since then and I can see how I've grown.
Maybe I didn't care that they were bad because I never set out to produce a photography portfolio or to be a photographer, and maybe that's why I never gave up. I knew nothing about cameras, I copied other photographers, listened to them talk and secretly made notes about what they were saying to Google later. I only learned to shoot on manual a year and a half ago, but I photographed day after day, never really knowing where it was leading - and now I see what it was about I'm so glad I kept going.
Don't get me wrong, I'm still not sure where this path will lead and I have so much further to go, but my feet are finally on the ground and I've never felt so sure.
I've just started an instagram account for my portfolio work, it's photos and stories from my work overseas and if you're interested you can follow along at freya.everle.
Portfolio :: Everle.com